My Transformation



Tomorrow I have another appointment with the lady who set all this off. I made decisions to change my life before she came along but nothing was quite set in stone. Now all of it seems to be falling into place. Her name is Dr. Andrea Stevens from the Ottawa Makeover Project. I’m not 100% sure what the plan is for tomorrow but I do know that Eric will be videotaping me and asking question for The Ottawa Makeover Project.

To be honest I’m beginning to get a little anxious about everything. Nervous about everything. I mean my life is completely changing and over the past few days I’ve been fighting off anxiety attacks and depression…….. Yesterday afternoon I slept for like four hours. I just hope that all the choices I have made were the right choices because I am not the only one who has to deal with those choices.

My fiance is so very supportive and loving. I don’t want to let her down. My daughter is bright light in a world that for me is sometimes very dark. I don’t want to let her down. My family has always stuck by me no matter the circumstance. I don’t want to let them down (I’ve been known to do that). I have to stay positive in the end it will work out for the best. I wrote something. I haven’t written anything in ten years. It used to be how I would get my feelings out and I think I may do more of it. Anyway thank you for reading. 🙂

Anxiety sets in,

Did I make the right choice;

Where do I begin,

Do I have the right voice.

Not just me I’m making choices for,

My family is affected;

Should I say anymore?

A friend once told me,

This is what he said;

You’re wishy washy,

Those words are in my head.

So anxiety,

Along with depression;


Try to keep up with the lesson.

I made my bed,

Now it’s time to lie;

Too many sheep in my head,

Now it’s time to try.


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